ALONE

					 I
 Alone
 As I sit here now 
 watching the past 
 now slips by 
 As I gaze upon the memories
 of roads not taken
 & chances lost 
 & mistakes that I have made
 burning slowly in my mind 
 like the ashes of my heart 
 Fading
 As I dwell in the chains of my personal hell
 Strength wanes & will is lost
 
					II 

 Millions of faces pass 
 by me each day on the street
 Each one wearing the same facade
 Unburdened by the pains we 
 all must bear
 Yet choose do I to take all pain as mine.  
 Of the world 
 & Yet cannot face today 
 for what it is
 
 					III

 A memorable fancy
 -----Jesus ----- Wept
 And so do I 
 for all of us
 What is truth?
 Pain.
 Pain is truth.  
 Beyond pain is where I thought 
 I dwelt
 Yet pain is forever mine.
 For everyone.
 One man alone cannot save the world 
 and unburden its souls
 Yet I try and
 the world cares not. 
 Falling again.  (Fallen Angel)  
 Forever.   
 Ha!  
 Tomorrow I will laugh again and joy 
 will be the world
 but not today
 today I must feel the pain.  
 Make it mine 
 & overcome
 Pain a state of min(e)d
 to overcome.

 					IV
 But wait.
 Just a moment now.
 Rebirth will come
 upon the ashes of now.  
 the past will seem like 
 the distant faded pictures
 that burn in the ashes of
 my heart.  but they will 
 rise again
 as my heart,
 into the phoenix
 to be born again.

 					V	
 
 Above and beyond 
 Everyone and everything
 A dream of a vision of a tomorrow
 Yet today's pain is mine
 I dwell upon madness
 or tomorrow
 Betrayed
 Me?  No.  Myself.
 How long has it been
 too long
 Since I felt this way
 I cannot escape
 to another world
 Yet I try
 this one pulls me back down
 again
 and I remember the way I felt
 Good, Too good.  Far too good
 And the world I built 
 Crumbles around me 
 In ruins
 And I will build another upon these ashes
 It does not help me now though
 Cause I seek to confront 
 & understand this pain
 & become it 
 & beyond it
 
 					VI

 I am better than this
 these words confront
 absorb my feelings
 Making me stronger
 To rise again
 To feel good again.
 Which feels so far away 
 as I write
 Yet everything dies
 I shall pass
 And gain that world the world
 the only world
 & dream