million

a million days wasted
a million laughs turned to tears
a million dreams driven into sand
    floating through an ocean of tears
yet here i sit laughing 
at life and my fate
like a child with a new toy
yet afraid to play 
all the past shatters behind me
     before me
as i breath the air & the rain falls upon my skin
& i gaze upon the sights of my life
       my love     my joy
knowing that all is never lost tho never the same
if we can only laugh
the shroud of life is a disguise
we must force ourselves to overcome
to live is to learn & to laugh
seldom what we make it, i know
but what we should hope to achieve